Grandma

Had our company employee appreciation party on Saturday night. It was fun, we hardly ever get to do it because it is so hard to get that big of a place to agree on what they want to do. We usually end up spending the alotted money on pizza at lunchtime toward the end of the year. Those of us that were interested decided it was time to take over and plan something. We decided to go local and go bowling. So, we had a big pizza and bowling party. Unfortunately, only 25 of about 50 employees showed with spouses and significant others. But, that just made it more fun. Who wants to have a bunch of party-poopooers there anyway.

So, let me get to the reason for my title for this blog. One of the employees ended up bringing his little girl along with his wife. She really had alot of fun and I enjoyed watching her. On a previous night, I got to enjoy talking with another friends' grandkids. I suddenly got that motherly twinge that some women get with kids. Or may it is just me, because I can relate to kids so much better than adults. Probably because they don't intimidate me the way some adults do. I just love the way their little faces light up when I talk to them and treat them like they are important, because of course, they are. I have decided this twinge is different than the one I used to get when I was younger and considered having another child, because I decided along time ago that I wasn't going to be having anymore children. At least not biologically. No, this was a maternal instinct of another kind. For years now I have enjoyed the company of my nieces and nephews and loving them as if they are my own. Now I think that I am ready to advance to a different level, as grandmother. But, don't get excited, I am not going to be or planning on being one anytime soon. I just am ready for when the time comes. I am looking forward to the time when I can look into the face of another newborn and know that I was and will be a part of that little person's growth and love. And, I can spoil them and then send them back to their parents and not be tied down to them 24/7. :)

And, maybe that time will be sooner than I think, at least as a step-grandmother. As Brian and I advance in our own relationship, I could possibly be step-granny to one of his grandchildren in a nearer future than my children will be procreating. And, that I can handle better than I have been handling being stepmom to his children. Probably because this time I will be starting out with them as newborns and that to me is easier to grow into, rather than starting out with them half grown.